The time rolling,
The bell toiling,
Life embittered.
I am nothing.
Pain deep and blinding,
Taunting laughter reminding,
Strife rendered.
I am nothing.
Feeling’s filter not working.
Brain off-kilter.
Time slowing,
Thoughts lolling,
Should I do it?
I am nothing.
Decision hardened cold,
Darkness sold,
Off I go.
Damn-it I can’t even do this right.
One more try.
Bye.
Duality
Daughter's drawing
I was diagnosed on August 9th, 2005 with Ultra-rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder. I swing often. It has been a struggle with my meds from the start. Side effects suck. I am a lot better with off with my medications though. I am on a quest to learn as much about my disorder that I can. I now major in Psychology to help along that path. I am now also beginning this blog to help me learn and cope. I was born March 31st, 1975. I have a wife and a boy and a girl. They put up with my mood swings. I will never be un-medicated again. Help me along my path.
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1 comment:
I really like how expressive and honest you are. I can really identify with this. It reminds me that I am not the only person living with Bipolar disorder.
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